i literally could not put the book down till i got to the last page!
woke up to azureeen's sms.
i wanted to sleep in, seriously.
but then decided to get off my ass and meet her at tiong bahru.
for all her noise, all she wanted was CHEWY JUNIOR.
thats the reason she got us both up so early! O.O
we also watched bride wars! haha.
it was good :D
we swore to never have our weddings on the same day. hahaha
walked around, sat around and chat.
as usual, all the rubbish comes out.
as well as lots of catching up.
we both mourned at the fact that school starts on MONDAY )):
we both knew this wonderful break wouldnt last.
and soon we'll have to start sprinting again.
*sighs. haha
i shudder to think of what life would be like.
if i did submit my appeal to jjc that day.
i seriously love just sitting down and chatting like there's no tomorrow(:
then i went off to meet manprit at bishan.
i took the wrong bus! but luckily i bought bus concession today! wahaha.
we went to eat haagen dazs! :DDDD
thanks to her $20 voucher.
i almost never get to eat at such places! as usual, we spent the time catching up.
and i managed to spill ice cream -.-
and knock several things over.
i think manprit's so used to it she just stops for a second, laughs and continues.
then we walked around awhile and walked to her house.
slacked awhile before going on a LOOOOONG walk.
we shared many things, past experiences which had scary similarities.
hahaha, played on the swing!
where i managed to hit my head on the swing -.-
then we took a super long walk to bishan mrt.
gosh,
i think we'll never run out of things to talk about o.o hahaha.
the bus ride home seemed to go on forever.
and i kept coughing on bus :x
no thanks to the ice cream we ate. haha!
.
.
the days are counting down!
monday's coming.
i'm excited yet dreading at the same time.
goodbye late mornings,
goodbye morning gym
goodbye laughing at j2s.
goodbye meeting manprit and the rest at odd hours of the day.
ohwell, time to take a deep breath and embrace 2009 in nyjc! :D
sighs, i dont want things to change.
i know what my stronghold for this year is.
lifestyle and discipline.
i love my devotion book!
it's really taught me so much. and pushed me to the edge at times.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009,12:59 am
in a blink of an eye the cny weekend has passed.
and even though there's like 15 days left, life goes on as per normal.
the end of all the festivities.
wasnt really in the celebrating mood this year,
partly because my sore throat's getting worse, haha!
i kept singing and singing in this horrible voice, just to piss my brother off :D
MONDAY
yesterday was alright,
with jj getting married last year, we got one more ang bao! haha.
talked around,
i didnt know jacinta & caiwen were 27 ?!
we were looking at a family photo taken 10 years ago, hahah!
also, yeshen was video-ing and photo-ing every moment.
gosh.
even how we bai nian and everything.
we were just about to play mahjong with ahma, when i went off to meet manprit.
hahaha, thats another story man!
we had HORRIBLE luck.
manprit saw many of her goooooood friends around :D
practically at every corner :D
took an hour walk around geylang, she broke her slipper,
some guy banged me with his car door. plus a dinner incident.
we then went off to tamp to meet 2 of her friends.
sat around and talked for awhile before i went back to aljunied to meet my family.
i just remember watching tv with qiang till i fell asleep :x
OH! i remember on the way home.
qiang, ling and i decided (okay i decided for them)
that we would plan to have our children at the same time.
on the *cough same day. hahahaha!
meaning we would call and synchronize with each other when we were going to do it.
you know, i think thats why our bithdays and years are so close.
kenneth, michael and i. (1991)
justin, daniel and qiang. (1989)
ling and wenting. (1994)
I DONT THINK ITS A COINCIDENCE ;D
the birthdays almost the same somemore :\
TUESDAY
went over to ahma's around 12.
as usual,we were the latest.
we always have AWESOME food with mum's side :D
shuyi and i played with polo.
us cousins sat around and talked,
we told adeline about our baby plans, and she decided to join in too! hahaha.
when we went into the room to see ahma,
you know. i think to myself,
why isnt she getting any better? ):
seriously, WHYWHYWHY));
then ling and i watched hsm3 on kenneth's iphone.
and then we went home(:
nothing much happened today, my parents just KO-ed right through.
and everyone's just resting.
.
.
ohmytian,
i cant believe its already wednesday!
my chinese new year resolution?
to watch all those good movies that are out now!
but everybody is busy! and school for me is going to start soon too):
time passes fast when you're having fun eh ?
Sunday, January 25, 2009,11:48 pm
i managed to wake up at 130pm again!
haha, champion man! :DDDD
prepared last minute stuff for cny,
then we went off to ahma's house for steamboat!
it was only two families there, but we ate SO MUCH O.O
watched dark knight too,
which to me is quite violent leh.
especially the part where the joker banged the pencil through a guy's head o.o
*shivers.
we ate and talked and ate and talked(:
one thing i alway get upset with.
is not being able to understand my ahma's chim hokkien! ):
i know one day i will regret not making the effort to pick it up.
CAN SOMEONE GIVE ME CRASH COURSE ? :D
anyway, it turns out my cousin andy got into harvard law.
ohmytian, HARVARD LAW ?!?!?!
first daniel in stanford, then now this!
on one hand i'm really really happy for him, and it was something we all saw coming.
but seriously! thanks for raising the bar in our family. haha.
crazy over-achieving cousins!
12:30 am
i found this picture in hq's blog.
and i realise how much i really really really miss them.
i know they'll do well this year(:
today was a day spent at home(:
woke up with my throat hurting horribly, and in the afternoon i got a little feverish
it really spoiled my mood for the day
so i didnt go for yuheng's birthday surprise at moo's house):
& i practically woke up at 130pm.
hahaha!
spent the day watching tv and preparing food for cny.
i realised i havent sat down with my family and ate for quite awhile.
so it was kind of nice(:
but still , i think being sick is the WORST THING EVER.
ekgjbroegnkerngpw
i hope i'll wake up tomorrow with a smile :D
i will just hate myself if i cant enjoy chinese new year food to its fullest.
manprit says she loves seeing her name on my blog.
so i shall start bad-mouthing about her!
okay, there's nothing bad to say about manprit, seriously. lols!
i'm really so happy to say we've been friends for eight years.
gosh, EIGHT YEARS O.O
and seriously, we havent changed at all. haha!
just that we now a new set of problems and happenings in our lives.
but i'm so glad that i can always go to manprit about ANYTHING!
and we'll just go on and on and on!
literally on and on and on!
like she says, in everything
i have you and you have me! hahaha.
i truly believe its hard to find friends you can be 99.9% open with.
even though i admit there are times i just want to kick her hard.
but, hey. what are friends for? HAHAHA.
the only flaw i see is that she knows too many of my secrets O.O
gosh, i hate phlegm.
Saturday, January 24, 2009,3:52 pm
i cant seem to find my focus
overdue photos:
D5 this 2009!
the last days of 2008! :D
i'm really really afraid i'll lose my direction and heart in You. i never never want to be satisfied with just enough. i never want to be satisfied with just one touch from You one revelation one breakthrough. not just knowing about You, but truly knowing You.
i actually see 2 paths laid before me.
one of good testimony, the other of better testimony.
unfortunately, i can't walk both with only one life can i ?
unknowingly, everything falls into place in God's masterplan. i wonder what will become of this in the years to come. haha.
people that just make me rofl
(see val i made it small! :D)
Friday, January 23, 2009,11:09 pm
okay, i'm going to apologise beforehand for the things i'm going to post about.
i'm probably clouded by blatant anger and frustration(:
but oh well.
firstly, i'm having the worst sore throat ever):
ohmytian, its really spoiling my mood.
meaning that i cant enjoy all the new year foood):
also, i have to speak up for my dearest laogong shuni
after train-ing home with you tonight, i realised how much i treasure your friendship once again.
and how i'm SO PISSED at what don's done!
seriously seriously, ohmytian.
i want to believe that everyone has a reason for doing what they do.
but seriously, this is really too much.
shuni, you deserve respect and priority and flat out honesty.
not this shitty heck-care, ignorant *beep*-ed up attitude.
i mean seriously, if after a year of being together,
he cant understand your heart, what does that show?
i want to give you the benefit of the doubt don, i really do.
but, HOW COULD YOU DO THIS TO HER ?!
seriously, your 360degree change in personality.
ohmygoodness.
come 9feb, i will seriously take a parang and chase your ass down.
i can understand child-like, but you're being straight out childISH.
we're already going 18,
EIGHTEEN.
we're no longer secondary school kids,
no longer emotionally driven and stubborn and blind and unknowing.
no more of your childish antics please.
life is way too freaking short for all this rubbish.
if everything i said means zero to you,
consider this :
is this what you call love?
the one she loves is you.
i spent the bus ride home putting some serious thought into all these.
watching all my friends and their relationships.
it seriously makes me doubt any good comes out of it.
but i believe you pick something up from each one.
experiences earned, lessons learnt.
but failed nonetheless.
i swear, my only string of hope on this is that i'm sure God has someone good in store(:
and then i thought, how do i want to spend the next few years of my life ?
one thing i do know, we're turning 18.
not 13, not even 16.
eighteen.
watching life roll by in school.
in fact, this week alone.
and i realise how childish we all can be (no offense)
letting silly things like rumours and all these crap shape our perceptions and judgements.
getting so self-conscious, petty and defensive.
at the end of the day, it really makes no sense.
and really wastes alot of good time.
whats lost is genuine sincerity and trust misplaced.
hahaha, why not just be authentic and have fun doing it :D
life's a whole lot better man.
even with this horrible sore throat,
i refuse to stop eating new year snacks! :DDDDDDD
today was a really tiring day.
for everyone im guessing.
manprit, sm and gentson just went home and KO.
met sm in the canteen in the morning.
the psycho reached before me luh!
he insisted 9am, but he came at 7am ?!
but he was being so polite and nice. HAHAHA.
maybe he shouldnt sleep more.
it turned out that i thought he'd bring books ,
and he thought i'd bring books.
= no maths today.
no mo qi right ? haha.
then i did some econs while he was watching her from afar.
was supposed to go gyming but i didnt ):
ended up playing a little basketball
( Gentson & i won sm and bk ! *dances )
met manprit, chatted for awhile before the bunch of us went to mac for breakfast.
thanks to manprit, my craving for healthy tau huay was crushed with NUGGETS.
sm was making strange animal noises and just being plain WEIRD.
seriously, after awhile i was just O.O?!
( sm i'm sorry :x )
more drama happened before manprit and i finally left.
then i went to tamp to meet pj, grace and zhengy!
talked and talked and talked.
then pj and i went to zhengy's house to rest.
read some blogs.
pj showed us a really sad blog.
about this girl who lost her boyfriend in NS.
it was really really horribly sad!
can you imagine, no closure to their 4-year relationship.
and people everywhere wallow in self-pity over their minute problems.
lol , anyway! haha.
then went to E!hub to meet jf, pf and jingyang.
nothing much to say. ahahahah.
lots of SUAN-ing.
train-ed home with shuni.
i really love love love the talks with her.
by then, my eyes were seriously hurting.
and i wanted to KO when i came home.
but after our trip, i HAD to blog! lols.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009,11:42 pm
funny how things never work out the way you picture ?
funny how things are never what they seem ?
today was just one thing after another.
from day to night luh.
i seriously dont understand why all these things are happening.
10:17 am
it was seriously a very interesting day man o.o
i just cannot explain it. haha.
first, peifen said she was officially going to withdraw)):
which means she probably cant come with me on the first day)):
woegilekngoewgnowijgr ):
met siming in school at 2plus,
you know, somehow i knew in my gut that we werent going to study.
and we really didnt.
lol, bk wanted to go sing k.
and i really hate it when people say things like zong se qing you :x
so i said faster go.
and he took a bagillion years from amk hub luh. lols. when it actually takes about 15mins only.
so long until i managed to hear the whole story.
it was really rofl and made no sense at all - much like siming himself :x
sooon, bk and manprit came.
and she wanted to go see them sing k for awhile.
i've learnt not to take manprit's AWHILE literally,
their singing k was the FUNNIEST THING EVER , seriously.
we were laughing until out stomachs rolled luh.
poor Gentson had to do siming's homework in the dark luh -.-
this is seriously a friendship where we all have no shame with each other le.
after that, something happened and i really really reaaally wanted to leave.
but that manprit lwkrghowgwkognoiw .
i'm seriously going to get revenge for it. hahaha.
but it really pissed me off luh,
when we finally did leave,
we went back to school to go running with dexter and jason.
i increased to 10rounds okay! lol,
while those psycho people ran 15.
thanks to her, i'm losing weight ! :DD
then , talked with junyan awhile.
which totally shocked me!
i really never ever ever ever ever expected what came out of his mouth.
i'm quite relieved to find that he's not the person we thought he was.
but at the same time, really really sad.
but, you cant control the things and people that cross your life yeah ^^
people like him need God in their life!
after that, went to spend some time with the girls playing bball.
they're all get injured luh):
and poor pinli's one, seriously.
hais, all the wrong things happening at the wrong time.
after that, many things happened during th inter-house luh!
which is going to be so much to type that i'm lazy :x
manprit and i were laughing our asses off.
as well as making a decision not to get involved in certain issues.
girl politics is the scariest thing ever.
saw many seniors come down for training today, even more than the team itself .
haha, havent seen huiling they all in such a long time.
after the inter house,
we went to bathe and ate dinner with qb, bk and gentson.
i tell you, i've now seen a new face of bk man!
the way he helped manprit with that guy on the phone.
we were all ROFL-ing !
it was so so so so so so funny!
haha, words seriously cannot describe how funny it was.
such a polite gangster. hahaha.
while they went back school to *ahem.
manprit and i went to j8 to shop! :DD
we bought the same skirt luh. lol.
walked around and then went to coffeebean to wait for siming.
where we saw a super cute guy! :DD
thats why we're going to coffeebean today tomorrow! hahaha.
when siming came, we talked for awhile before finally going home.
went home and talked with dad abit.
i hope this temp teaching job is really opening his eyes to teaching kids.
and that you cant always get the perfect class, the perfect students.
but isnt that the whole point of being a teacher ?
to teach the imperfect.
today was a really enlightening day. haha.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009,10:14 am
whenever i dont blog for awhile,
its either that my com spoilt,
or that things have gone wrong in my life. hahaha.
well, my computer didnt spoil.
FRIDAY:D
went to eat nyny for the FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE ! haha.
with joanne png, lihua, peijun and jieru.
it is so expensve and not exactly fantastic leh.
my salad cost about 11 bucks in the end.
O.O!
SALAD LEH!
i admit it was a nice salad, but really expensive)):
but their service is kind of coool,
because they let us play with the cotton candy thing! haha
li hua and i went fareast after that for shopppping ;DD
like finally, we've been craving it all weeek :x
we only had about an hour plus,
but we managed to get something. haha.
this is called pro :D
then we chiong-ed over for BMI.
which was super fun because of gang yuan. HAHAHA.
we made cleaning fun man.
had dinner with D5 and went home.
SATURDAY :D
mum, ling and i brought ahma to lighthouse church today.
seeing her condition now and everything,
feet twisted and hands tiff, swollen from head to toe):
not just for a minute, not even for an hour.
but EVERYDAY):
she's in so much pain from all these.
and we cant do anything to help but pray.
i seriously hate parkinsons disease, i really hate it.
she couldnt even sit more than half an hour.
she couldnt even sit through the service.
one thing i thank God for this year is my ahma's salvation, truly.
but i want to believe for her deliverence and healing as well.
the part that broke my heart is when,
in all her pain and suffering,
she never wanted to leave her room.
but since she's got saved,
she's only ever left her room, to want to go for service.
a service that she probably cant even sit through.
but still she hungers for the love of a God.
she doesnt know it, but she really inspires me.
and then i think about people who go to service reluctantly, ignorantly even.
and then i think of people like my ahma.
i want to say i understand, but sometimes i really dont.
that night when we brought her back to her room.
we all sat with her and talked.
after awhile she even said, she wanted to go back to church.
but ivy had to tell her service was over.
i tell you, at the moment i was already in tears.
i looked at her from head to toe, all red and swollen.
her body twisted and stiffen from the disease.
i now know what strength my ahma has in her.
i went home and i cried.
SUNDAY
my mood was horribly torn when i woke up.
people whom i expected to react in certain ways did - as usual.
went to fareast to pick up my shoes :D
which turned out to be really big):
so i'm going to put tissue paper! haha.
then , chiong-ed down for pm.
and it turned out everyone was late -.-
i think my mind was kind of distracted during pm :x
but service was great(:
really really great.
this series Pastor is on, is like. woah man!
hahaha.
i now understand what ken meant.
God did answer some of my questions through the service.
in fact, throughtout the day.
esp during discipleship class.
it was with Charleston today.
i feel he has a really personal quality about him, to connect with us.
he shared with us many stories, and got us to share too.
when i heard about people like Joy with her PO.
they're really heroes of faith man!
but still i thought about the PO.
and, the parents arent the bad guys.
they're just being, parents.
logical, protective.
i dont think we can really blame them ?
it was really paiseh when i cried in front of Charleston man!
but he really spoke to how i was feeling that day.
and i couldnt help but ask :x
i felt so bad cos i even said "charleston dont look at me leh"
when i was crying :xxx
i know that people like him have gone through so much to be what they are today.
but, i dont think i have that strength :x
shared with fungus about how i felt
about all the intgs.
my friends actually, guess i cant say too much here. hahaha.
but i'm going to have even more faith man!
press on press on.
went home, talked to my parents,
well , it almost went well.
soon they went back to scolding and being pissed -.-
i seriously long for some peace in my life. haha.
Friday, January 16, 2009,12:11 am
只要是用心
today was another day!
woke up at 4plus to mum's annoying alarm.
it kept ringing and ringing and ringing -.-
woke up again about 10plus after finally having a day to sleeep in :DD
dad forced me to do some chores before i left the house):
but it was okay! haha.
chiong-ed down to xinmin sec by taking 2 super long buses.
i think i've burnt out my ezlink card all within this week ):
my poor money has flown away man.
it was quite a pretty school!
though jasmine kept saying its not nice.
it has SWINGS MAN(: and its colourful. hahaha.
jingfen and i had to bluff the security guard that i was alumni :x
we also spent time laughing at the photos on the 60th board. HAHAH!
we took super long to find zhengy's face!
hm, chiong-ed to school after that.
only to find that i got ps-ed by weijian and angzhilin!
luckily manprit was there.
slacked, played ball and ran as usual.
hahaha, manprit's my only friend that makes me exercise.
thats why i love her! haha.
that psycho woman ran 20 rounds ?!
while i only ran 7 :D watching weishen and dexter run too was really funny :x
chatted with coach awhile and then chiong-ed off to church(:
at first, i kind of wanted to stay in school and talk to coach more :x
eesh! i need to have discipline man!
luckily i wasnt late.
OHMYTIAN!
we had a two and a half hour prayer meeting!
though we were only 7, it was really a stretch for us!
but we pushed on in faith, and there's this sense of accomplishment man!
now i know what joyce chua did is truly amazing.
i believe its a breakthrough for many of us.
i know things are going to shift and change! woots :D
i truly believe these arent just names on a piece of paper.
it isnt just empty words that excape our mouths.
we spoke them in faith & with a vision in our hearts :D
i cant wait for these things to come to pass.
mum and dad want to wake up at 630am to exercise later )):
ohmytian,
but, its once in a purple chocolate-coated moon they initiate to EXERCISE.
so i will force myself to wake up! hahaha
Tuesday, January 13, 2009,11:43 pm
i'm really tired!
i hate waking up at 6plus. hahaha.
but thankfully mum works at zhonghua,
so can hitch a ride :D
muahaha!
open house today,
honestly i didnt think there were many people :x
haha, but many girls approached our basketball booth.
thats a goood thing, since they dont have many people(:
we spent quite alot of time being disorganised before finally settling the
stuff. poor pinli was so stressed - as usual :x
but, many of the teams backed out last minute):
and poor eileen got scolded for it.
whats this. there's a increasing number of unreasonable teachers! O.O
manprit's team won. LOL.
after two walkovers and one match. LOL!
after that, walked around walked around.
saw abit of the guy's tournament.
it had to stop halfway though, because of the rain.
i finally know who is tingyi and bk man! lols.
but they turned out really opposite of what i expected :x
ladida ladida~
watched the new mass dance!
ohmytian, its hsm3.
lols, then went to speak to ms tang & ms yau.
i know , finally):
i was really scared okay.
i dont want to say what happened, and it really stung me alot.
i sensed alot of sarcasm.
but i'm glad i got it over with.
what they said, was whaat i expected,
but still i left the room in tears.
ladida ladida~
went with jordan ( THE CUTEST THING EVER )
to find manprit, sm and cy at central.
then came back to play cards and talk at our new garden!
our school's new garden park-like thing is really nice! :D
but jordan was pointing out every insect he saw! haha.
the innocence of a little boy,
with the novelty of discovery! HAHA.
then , they soon left, and jordan went to the courts.
ohmytian, i must dedicate an apology to jordan.
i promised we would go down and find him.
and we did! we went down the grandstand side,
AND HE WAS GONE )):
we searched around for him and couldnt find him.
and my phone was dead so i couldnt call! ):
i feel so so so so guilty!
JORDAN IM SO SORRY!
words cannot express how bad i feel!
upsetting a little boy is something i despise MOST):
manprit and i then chatted on the grandstand, waiting for dexter.
heart to heart man! lols.
with added crap.
ladida ladida~
somehow we ended up eating at bishan.
cafe cartel! burned a hole in my wallet ):
but its a nice to sit and chat :D
plus we saw claire, jolene & jamie!
and they finally recognised us! haha.
ate, talked about many things.
went toilet, then home !
i'm really really tired man):
i dont want to wake up early again tomorrow! )):
i long for the days where we can just lie down and KO on the grandstand,
and just. BE LAZY :x
some people i must say.
under certain circumstances, can just be so superficial,
presenting a facade.
even using me as a prop!
i wont say anything, it was quite entertaining watching your pretense actually.
Monday, January 12, 2009,10:06 pm
the weekend has been really long!
saturday seemed so long ago.
SATURDAY :D
i met up with zhengy first for lunch.
i couldnt hold everything that was inside me anymore.
and i EXPLODED onto zhengy!
she was so patient to listen to all that was on my heart!
thanks alot zhengy(:
but still, i was feeling really traumatised ?
i dont know.
i know i'm not over-reacting when i say that it was too much.
honestly, i wasnt in the mood for usher.
but i know that i needed to keep a heart of servanthood.
thanks to the encouragement of zhengy, i didnt back out.
and in the end, usher turned out to be so fun!
really learnt alot this time, and it really cheered me up to serve.
tiring, dizzy and hungry. but spiritually fulfilling(:
yilin assigned me to C1.
but the other usher wasnt there!
so i had to do the blue envelope thing.
& i was SUPER kanchiong! until my SLs had to ask me not to be so kan chiong.
the image of gang yuan laughing his butt off still haunts me.
HAHAHAHA.
i really learnt the importance of being quick and efficient and on cue.
but NOT to be kanchiong :D
it turned out to be really run!
our team was awesome. haha. with those few familiar faces(:
during debrief,
Godric and i could literally only think about DIM SUM. haha
eager to leave :x
but yilin shared many things which she observed.
which i do actually think we should pick up on :D
after that, though we finished,
gang yuan and noni refused to let the girls go.
cos it would look unfair to the guys.
so , we did the intro thing.
lol, they're seriously the most RANDOM people ever!
but yet great leaders in the house of God man.
they have SO MANY RESPONSIBILITIES!
its so inspiring!
chiong-ed down for dim sum.
but had to meet my parents after only about 20mins):
that night on the way home.
my mum said something that really hurt me.
everything i said, was inner jokes between me and my siblings since FOREVER
but she still held my words against me
kdfo0rwignkwgo ):
SUNDAY :D
i had the WORST stomachache in the morning! lol.
so i only reached in time for service :x haha
service, ohmytian.
it was just amazing! seriously.
the word was just so revelational.
and i felt God's presence just flow with each word Pastor preached!
it was just.
amazing.
i felt a burden once again tugging in my heart.
i know it might be financially tight.
but i think this series is really something they have to hear):
after that.
had a deoderant war with godric man.
by war i mean WAR.
AND MY WHOLE SHIRT WAS FULL OF IT )):
while the SP gang was taking photos, helping pf 4D,
the rest of us were writing Choongkai's card.
which he already saw -.-
spoiler! haha.
we then took funny photos for database.
and i waited for fungus for discipleship class.
we literally CHIONGED from the lift to mpr2.
it was really funny! hahaha.
i was chanting "gogogogogogogogo~"
in the end, though Dom was late.
we spent the time BONDING. hahaha.
before that though,
i ate a cheeseburger, the FASTEST I EVER ATE O.O
we played zong ji mi ma. with weird forfeits. HAHAHA.
it was really funny!
then we watched ju yin laugh for half an hour NON STOP.
gosh, it reminded me of shuni.
just that this girl has hyena laughter man!
on and on and on and on.
i'm haunted, haha.
when Dom came, we all settled down and received a great word.
about doing the right thing.
i guess this is something that answered what i brought up in prayer.
doing the right thing.
when it comes to relationships and everything.
i know that when i look back,
i dont want to remember years and months of directionless playing.
every decision defines you man (:
but dom made all the serious things really funny! haha.
and when qiwei shared about his experience.
i decided that i dont want my relationship with my family to be minimal anymore.
that night, i spent the time to talk to my dad.
and promised to eat breakfast with him today.
that night, i prayed.
i prayed my heart out before the first day of school.
MONDAY(:
finally today!
haha. i was struggling so hard to get up! o.o
ate tau huay with dad.
it was really funny! we laughed at stuff in the newspaper.
it was brief though, then i went off to school for pm.
we didnt have much time.
but, i think its important to kick off the year on the right foot.
i really hope this year is different,
this year - things will start to move.
& i'm sorry jianfan once again for not having flow :x
anyway, went to watch one episode of my drama after that :D
and kicked around the rugby ball with jf and yx.
i'm happy to admit that i seriously cmi in the dont-know-what-touch kick thing.
but it was fun playing with them.
its been so long.
then jingfen came.
haha, ate lunch with her and some others.
she's so nice to travel so far for us man!
then ladida~ ladida~
manprit and i went to help out at the house exco.
blowing balloons and cutting banners.
LOL, but candace julia and some others were there.
it was nice to catch up with them.
even if it was short(:
then, ladida~ ladida~
slacked around with qb and gentson.
supposedly they were "studying"
while i watched another episode.
the show is pissing me off man!
the people are so SCHEMING AND SELFISH! O.O
but anyway, we somehow ended up at the basketball court.
HAHAHA, then that psycho manprit wanted to run.
after a few rounds, i gave up :x haha.
but she kept on going and going and going.
i told qb and gentson about how i felt.
like finally, i've been wanting to pour it out on them for so long
i seriously dont know if they understood.
cos they spent half the time defending him :x
then somehow, with all our kanchiong-ness.
we ended up at j8.
LOL, i'm sorry. lazy to put in details :x hahaha.
ate pasta and gentson went off.
manprit and i SHOPPED(:
walked and walked around awhile before going off.
today was one of those,
significantly random days (:
but i'm glad i have friends around me now.
who knows what 2feb would bring.
i know all of these will change,
and i want to cherish the time with them now while i can(:
OHOHOH.
i forgot to say, my biggest heartache for today!
JORDAN PANGSEH-ED ME )):
i can understand men leaving me,
but p6 boys too ?! ):
im demoralised man! lol.
Saturday, January 10, 2009,10:28 am
i love the weekends! going to be on usher today it was supposed to be my third bmt duty. but because i forgot to let my SL sign my form on new year's eve. i have to do another one)): hahaha, but ushering is FUN! you learn infinite things man. its just that wont get to spend the day with my cg.
anyway, this past week has just been the weirdest thing ever o.o just . weird. i dont know how else to describe it. seriously. hahaha.
anyway, i dont know if im just pms-ing or something. but i'm actually looking forward to the new year now! :DD besides the sian-ness of school. looking forward to new experiences! plus, going to start ministry soon :D hopefully under zhengy.
this is good life advice someone sent me! haha.
ONE. Give people more than they expect and do it cheerfully.
TWO. Marry a man/woman you love to talk to. As you get older, their conversational skills will be as important as any other.
THREE. Don't believe all you hear, spend all you have or sleep all you want.
FOUR. When you say, "I love you," mean it.
FIVE. When you say, "I'm sorry," look the person in the eye.
SIX. Be engaged at least six months before you get married.
SEVEN. Believe in love at first sight.
EIGHT. Never laugh at anyone's dream. People who don't have dreams don't have much.
NINE. Love deeply and passionately. You might get hurt but it's the only way to live life completely.
TEN. In disagreements, fight fairly. No name calling.
ELEVEN. Don't judge people by their relatives.
TWELVE. Talk slowly but think quickly.
THIRTEEN. When someone asks you a question you don't want to answer, smile and ask, "Why do you want to know?"
FOURTEEN. Remember that great love and great achievements involve great risk.
FIFTEEN. Say "bless you" when you hear someone sneeze.
SIXTEEN. When you lose, don't lose the lesson .
SEVENTEEN. Remember the three R's: Respect for self; Respect for others; and responsibility for all your actions.
EIGHTEEN. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.
NINETEEN. When you realize you've made a mistake, take immediate steps to correct it.
TWENTY. Smile when picking up the phone. The caller will hear it in your voice.
TWENTY-ONE. Spend some time alone.
Friday, January 09, 2009,3:26 pm
Exceedingly, Abundantly - Ephesians 3:20.
the problem with many of us nowadays, we get too easily enamored with our own plans. we aim to do noble and potentially difficult things, then we assume that we're experiencing the maximum potential for our lives, and that God must be pleased with us.
the thing i learned from QT last night. is that, we can never set a goal too big, an attempt so significant. that God doesnt have something far greater that He can do through you and in you.
for example. Saul worked really hard. probably harder than anyone else to impress God with his efforts. only to discover that his greatest achievements were but rubbish compared to God's will ( Philippians 3)
God sees the bigger picture. bigger than we can even hope to imagine to see. until we've heard from Him - He who's power far exceeds our limited and narrow imagination. we must put aside our personal agenda, however lofty. we must never be satisfied with our own dreams, for they are finite at best.
i think that nowadays, everyone's obsessed with pursuing their own aspiration, ambitions and "dreams" they show blatant disregard for the feelings of others. in deep dark naked truth. without hesitation, they are willing to step all over anyone in their way. backstabbing, bad-mouthing, humiliating, black-mailing. there's no integrity in words or promises anymore.
but, i seriously believe. if you're depending on nothing but yourself. pursuing things of your own, when you do get the job you've always wanted. the achievements you've been pining for. the bf/gf you've been yearning for. the lifestyle you've been moulding out. [ seeing how many years it could take ]
do you think you'll be satisfied ? there is a void, a sense of eternity in everyone of us. nobody an exception. everyone is always seeking more. there never seems to be enough. trust me, i know for sure, 100000% that you wont be satisfied. maybe short term yes. but you'll always have that feeling of inadequacy tugging on you. that feeling of insufficiency and unacceptance. and no matter WHAT you do. no matter which new opportunity you ride on. it will never fulfill you.
there's a God that loves you unconditionally. a touch from Him can change your life(: all you have to do is seek Him.
"And whatever things you as in prayer, believing, you will receive" - Matthew 21:22
you dont even have anything to lose. haha :D
lalala ~ okay, anyway. going for the PGSM preview later again. ohmytian! it's like my 3rd time. honestly, i'm really really glad Julia's considering this option. and i really hope she finds what she's looking for. i seriously do(:
with school for the j2s starting this monday. the wheel will finally start turning. and life is hasten into a sprint once again. please let this year be a good one. i really really really really hope it will be. i realised i havent put my personal resolutions ? haha.
[1] to promote well ! mug mug mug! [2] fulfill my personal faith target ! [3] have a memorable and significant 2009 in nyjc&hogc - D5! - ministry! [4] less vulgarities! [5] read more! [6] surround myself with people who actually give a shit about me :D [7] speak less, learn more! -teachability, availability up up up! [8] finish BRP! [9] NOT give people the wrong idea (only some will understand) [10] love others sincerely - put my friends' needs before my own. [11] JIAN FEI :D [12] not succumb to the expectations of others. [13] have more discipline in the things i do! laziness&procrastination down down down !
anyway, saw this quiz on my friend's blog. and decided to do it! haha. quizzes and really random.
You are the World
Completion, Good Reward.
The World is the final card of the Major Arcana, and as such represents saturnian energies, time, and completion.
The World card pictures a dancer in a Yoni (sometimes made of laurel leaves). The Yoni symbolizes the great Mother, the cervix through which everything is born, and also the doorway to the next life after death. It is indicative of a complete circle. Everything is finally coming together, successfully and at last. You will get that Ph.D. you've been working for years to complete, graduate at long last, marry after a long engagement, or finish that huge project. This card is not for little ends, but for big ones, important ones, ones that come with well earned cheers and acknowledgements. Your hard work, knowledge, wisdom, patience, etc, will absolutely pay-off; you've done everything right.
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